One of the most helpless feelings in the world has got to be looking at where you were one year ago, and realizing that despite the best intentions, you are still in the same, mediocre spot as you were last year. This time last year, I was preparing to say goodbye to KMart, moving into to several part-time teaching positions, and looking forward to a less frustrating new year.
This year, I'm back working at KMart, and looking forward to something, anything, changing for the better this year. It could be a good year--I've applied to go back to school, so I may be moving to another part of the country in 7 months. Regardless of whether that happens, something has got to give. I'm going to make a change. I've got to get out of how my life is now. I'm sick of struggling to pay bills, fighting to stay afloat every month, and feeling like I've failed myself because I'm not using my 6 years of schooling to do something more than get continually frustrated by the customers at KMart.
I'm not going to spend a whole lot of time reflecting on the last year. If you're reading this, you've probably been along with me for a lot of it. Teaching, living, learning. That's what it's all about. I'm trying to learn to enjoy my life as it exists right now. Some days are harder than others. But hopefully this year, I'll live and learn (but no Luvs--so not ready for babies).
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